BF Diary: Weaning off, finally!!

Yes, yes, yes! Berjaya dah nak wean off kan Mika seminggu before start puasa. Mula-mula macam nak redho je kan dengan night feeding dia tu, walaupun dia dah nak dapat adik. Tapi lama-lama tak tahan la pulak, sakit pinggang giler-giler melayan kerenah dia memalam. So keraskan hati. Malam paksa jugak minum susu coklat dia, bangun malam-malam pun paksa jugak. kalau dia tak nak, aku tutup telinga sambung tido.

hahaha harus la dia redho dengan perangai mummy nih.. lepas 2-3 hari macam tu, terus pandai minta susu coklat kalau terjaga malam. since daddy ada, dia la mangsa tukang amik susu dalam peti. dasar pemalas kami ni, malam-malam buta kasi Mika fresh milk sejuk hahaha tapi kengkadang buat perangai jugak budak tu. nak tak nak, nak mummy jugak pegi amik. padahal sama je rasanya. kadang siap nak suruh aku pegangkan botol susu dia. kene pegang handle dua-dua belah elok-elok pulak tu.. over sangat ko Mika oii! kalau time tengah penat tu, rasa kecik besar kecik besar je aku tengok dia. tak kisahlah nak, asal awak berhenti. cuma satu la, penat nak bangun malam amik susu dia. dulu main sua je, tak payah celik mata pun.

dapat la berehat sekejap dr BF ni. simpan tenaga tuk adik pulak.

BF Diary: Weaning off, gagal lagi!

Since bekalan dah almost nak abis, aku pun decide why not wean of jugak untuk night feeding.. So two weeks back aku pun gigih masuk tido dengan asam jawa.. Aku sogok dia cakap susu dah basi, that's why masam kekekeke.

for a week plus memang berjaya tido without nursing. Lambat la dia tido, memang tiap hari aku dozed off dulu. Budak tu? Tatau la adventure apa dia masuk, tapi tiap malam mesti end up tengah2, menyelit antara aku and maliki.. Pastu ada la suprise bila bangun pagi, like langsir terbuka luas, kain busuk bergelimpang atas lantai..etc etc

Tapi malam-malam still dia bangun nak susu and tak kisah masam ke apa. since aku ada niat nak stop ni, makin kerap pulak dia bangun malam-malam. Dulu dah subuh baru cari, kadang-kadang tak bangun langsung.

2 days back, strategy asam jawa aku fail terus. Before tido still request nak susu, paling best masam pun tak pe. Dah imune gamaknya budak nih dengan masam asam jawa tuh. Bukan sikit aku letak tau!!

So semalam aku tekat xnak kasi jugak. This really has to stop! Mengamuk la dia menjerit-jerit. Merayu-rayu dia, aku pun nego cakap dia dah besar and aku sakit. Lepas tu aku offer susu coklat, dia accept dalam tersedu-sedu. Habislah 4oz susu tu then start tepuk-tepuk tapi tak tido jugak. Aku yang lelap dulu~

Pastu malam tu pukul 3:30 bangun lagi meraung-raung. Habis aku kene tendang bagai, dia minta tag and susu coklat. Aku offer bm dia xnak. Once maliki amik susu coklat dia, tak nak pulak minum!! Dok gigih gentel tag sampai tido

Next pukul 5:30 bangun lagi dengan the same drama. This time budak ni tantrum lagi dasyat. Tag tak nak, susu coklat tak nak tapi dok mintak jom jom jom. So aku tanya nak tengok tv ke dia kata bukan.. Pastu aku pujuk2 kasi dia calm down dulu, abis tangan aku dia tepis-tepis.

Rupanya dia merajuk dengan aku sebab aku kasi dia susu coklat before tido tadi. Pandang aku macam nak makan orang. Pastu aku minta maaf kat dia and offer susu, dia tanak. Since semua fail, aku pun berdramalah,"mika marah mummy ye? Tanak tido dengan mummy? Ok mummy tido luar ok. Mika tido dengan daddy ye?" Pastu dia pandang je aku. Then for the last time aku offer nak hug, terus dia datang baring kat aku, then cakap "nak nih" sambil tepuk-tepuk.

Nilah budak penuh drama nih.

Kesimpulannya, wean off process macam fail je. Apa nak buat lagi nih? Bior je dia continue or tukar strategy?

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BF Diary: Sisa sisa EBM

Dah 5 minggu aku stop mengepam. Target 2 tahun dah berjaya dicapai, sekarang nak set wean off totally before 3 tahun. Ramai dah orang bising, dah besar katanya anak aku tu tak boleh breastfeed lagi. Sekarang adalah phase untuk menghabiskan sisa-sisa ebm dalam deep freezer.

Ni je tinggal, boleh tahan 9 hari hari je lagi.

Mika still reject fresh milk, both susu lembu and susu kambing. So terpaksa berharap pada susu segar perasa coklat.

Why terpaksa? Sebab kandungan gula susu coklat lagi tinggi dari fresh milk biasa. Walaupun aku tak strict sangat pasal makanan dia sekarang, aku still nak minimize sugar intake Mika. Nasib la Farm Fresh ada perasa coklat. So sekarang anta pergi school satu botol ebm satu botol susu coklat.


Freestyle pun dah bungkus masuk store.
  

Thank you, you served me well.

So sekarang tinggal satu je lagi nak settlekan, nak wean off kan Mika totally from breastfeeding. Siang dah jarang-jarang, and most of the time dia boleh accept kalau aku suruh tunggu..


Tapi time malam payah nya hoiii!!! Time nak tido memang dia standby awal-awal bagitau nak susu. Kalau aku delay cakap nak gosok gigi, nanti dia tunggu depan pintu toilet. Kalau aku cakap susu abis, start la berbunyi radio cabuk dia tu.. Sambil cakar-calar muka aku, tarik tarik rambut nak susu. Acane tuh?


Cuba kasi idea sikit macam mana nak kasi dia tido sendiri tanpa menyusu? Tidur buai aku tak terima.


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BF Diary: 20 months and counting!

Alhamdulillah, rezeki masih ada untuk meneruskan usaha menyusukan Mika.. lepas tragedi susu Mika almost 2 months ago, berjaya jugak kumpul balik stock.. from 2 weeks dah naik jadi 2 months stock.. walaupun merangkak je skrg, aku syukur sangat-sangat sebab tetap ada

Current stock in deep freezer

p/s: dimana ada kemahuan, disitu ada jalan.. 4 months to go bebeh!!

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Tragedy!

I lost all my breastmilk in my precious deep freezer today.

But I'm okay.

Rezeki Mika masih ada InsyaAllah.

p/s: semoga perjalanan ini dipermudahkan. amin~

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BF Diary: One and Half!

18 months of breastfeeding.. Alhamdulillah, rezeki Mika masih ada. Masih mengepam dua kali sehari dekat office walaupun hasil tuaian tak lah semeriah dulu.

Current stock in the deep freezer

6 bulan je lagi sebelum mencapai my 2 years target.. Semoga dipermudah dan dimurahkan rezeki Mika, InsyaAllah.

sekarang tengah fikir, nak sambung mengepam ke tak come 14th Oct 2013.

as for Mika pulak, dia dah tau inform kalau dia poo poo.. paling impress bila dia ckp "yak yak" before doing his business ehehehe dah boleh potty train ke?? mcm too early, i'm not mentally and physically prepared #eh
then dah pandai follow simple instruction like  "mummy want book" nanti dia fetch the book and pass to me.. or "Mika tutup tv" then he'll go to the tv and switch off the tv.. erm yeah, he just discovered those small button at the side.

BF Diary: Storage Liner Review (Autumnz vs Jingle Jungle)

Dah lama aku nak buat review pasal storage liner ni.. sebab aku adalah pengguna tegar.. tak pernah freeze EBM dalam botol.. memang dari dalam pantang lagi aku guna plastic nih.. and nasib jugak aku tak pakai botol.. looking at the stock yang ada dalam deep freezer tu.. tatau la kan berapa ratus botol aku nak kene beli nanti.. hahah memang pengsan..
selama 15 bulan mengepam, aku pernah guna 2 jenis liner jek.. which is Autumnz and Jingle Jungle sebab brand ni jek paling murah di pasaran.. kalau time baby fair, autumnz tu boleh jatuh RM9 per box. Jingle Jungle liner aku beli masa clearance kat FM RM13 for 2 box kot..

Storage Liner Autumnz

 

Pic source: Google

Pros
- Double ziplock
- Plastic dia tebal, takde jugak case susu bocor lepas thaw
- Heat seals side yang tegap, takde case plastic terkoyak masa nak buka ziplock dia masa menyimpan or case susu bocor lepas dicairkan

Con
- Tempat labelling dia tak strategic.. kene label dulu before masukkan susu, kalau tak memang tak lekat ink kalau store susu yang sudah dichill.. and susah nak baca label.. maksudnya kene la angkat and keluarkan baru boleh nampak.

Storage Liner Jingle Jungle

 

Pic source: Google

Pros
- Double ziplock
- Tempat labelling senang dibaca.. tak perlu nak angkat and keluarkan susu, just selak-selak je plastic tu dah boleh baca

Cons
- Plastic dia tak tahan lasak.. 
- Side seal dia tak kuat, selalu terkoyak side dia time aku buka ziplock tu.. especially kalau tertarik kuat.. this never happens with autumnz liner storage!! banyak storage terkorban sebelum berkhidmat~ 

antara storage bag yang terkorban.. koyak di bahagian tepi masa buka ziplock dia.. this never happen with autumnz

kedua-dua point diatas menyumbang kepada issue susu bocor.. aku pun tak tau kenapa, masa simpan elok je.. bila dah freeze and dicairkan balik, tiba-tiba bocor side dia.. sah-sah susu dah bercampur dengan air rendaman, and haruslah kene buang.. ni dah jadi banyak kali and i vows never to buy any jingle jungle storage liner again!!

Autumnz vs Jingle Jungle

so in my honest opinion, kalau korang tanya which storage liner to use.. i'll definitely vote for Autumnz!! selamat menyimpan~~

BF Diary: After one year

It's been a while since I last updated on my BF journey.. Yes, I'm still breastfeeding my lil cute monster! Cuma takde benda baru to be shared~ it's the same old routine: pumping, storing, defrosting and finally bottle cleaning! Kalau tiap hari nak update the same thing, aku pun muak!
Plus i'm not that obsess with BFing. Don't get me wrong! I'm dead set to feed Mika till he's at least 2 y.o and will do my best to achieve my target. I support breastfeeding and i enjoy this journey very much. Kalau ada yang bertanya tips and ilmu, aku sure gembira nak share walaupun ilmu aku pun sekangkang kera jek! Cumanya, i don't see the need to upload or update story or picture of my milk everyday..
Hari ni exception cause i've reached the one year milestone! Yeay!! Susah payah dan kesakitan yang dilalui dirasakan sangat berbaloi-baloi~ *kes kes bengkak susu still menyerang and at the moment.. Am facing the worst blister ever atoiii sobs sobs*

My stock after one year~ 

untuk resolvekan issue space dulu, i've reduce my pumping session to 3x daily.. Kadang2 mengelat and skip all 3 session (only on ph or weekends)! Kat office bila rajin and ada masa lapang, aku pump twice. Most time skali je huhu tapi still alhamdulillah cukup jugak (jangan tiru kemalasan ini!)
InsyaAllah, akan ku berjuang nak completekan another year.. Doakan aku berjaya~
p/s: i do not take supplement and i don't believe in them(at least not for increasing ur milk supply)! Understand the demand vs supply concept, lagi kerap kita pump.. InsyaAllah lagi banyak susu yang terhasil!

FS ku masuk clinic

setelah berkhidmat hampir 6 bulan, FS ku akhirnya terpaksa berehat sebentar kat clinic.. huhu maybe sbb aku heavy user kot.. tatau ler nak cakap kan.. dah la aku beli direct from US so takde warranty.. and dari hasil bacaan aku dr en.google, rata-rata cakap medela service center bo layan customer-customer yang beli luar dr malaysia.. so cemana tu??


2 hari jugak la aku meroyan sebab pam-pam lain tak mencapai piawaian aku (read: tak semudah FS) heh~ hari khamis baru boleh pegi service center.. kitaorg pegi yang kat bangsar tu, jumpa Nurul. alhamdulillah, layanan dia boleh tahan, mesra and ramah.. walaupun takde malaysia warranty, dia still ambil.. charge tuk service is double.. kalau malaysia warranty RM60, aku kene RM120.. itu just untuk check sahaja, nak baiki and spareparts tak campur lagi..


suction level tu for normal pump 250, tapi FS aku around 100 - 150 jek.. dia cakap valve dalam pam yang rosak.. so in total maybe around RM300 kalau nak baiki.. yang menjadi persoalan dia cakap dorang akan ganti guna sparepart second hand.. so tatau berapa lama boleh tahan~ apakah?? alasan dorang, US nye sparepart lain dengan sparepart switzerland.. yang peliknye, semua pump ni kan mmg made in switzerland.. confirm dorang patentkan design dorg ni.. so mesti la design pun sama.. then dia cakap, kita tengok power adaptor pun tau pam ni beli kat US.. sah sah la.. kan dorang nye power point tak sama dengan kita, sebab tu la kalau kita travel kene bawak universal adaptor tu.. ntah la, aku still tak puas hati dengan alasan and penjelasan beliau..


apa pun, terpaksa la hantar jugak.. tak tau la outcome macam mana sebab pump pun tak dapat lagi.. katanya seminggu.. ni cam dah lebih seminggu pun takde kabar berita.. paling-paling pun call la customer update la lambat ke apa kan..


overall aku kasi 3 bintang jek la kat service center ni.. 


p/s: pasni leh buat review breastpump sebab aku dah try 2-3 different pump!
p/ss: owh, thanks melah sebab pinjamkan FS~

BF Diary: Space Space Space!!!

The solution to our space dilemma!!











Brand new deep freezer!!!












NOT!!!












My first donation~ 300 oz in total to an aunty who is suffering from cancer.. They are trying to build her immune system to undergo chemo..



I said "yes" instantly cause i'm desperate to make space for new ebm and she's over 2 years old.. Xperlu risau pasal anak susuan and the ties..

p/s: goodluck aunty and hope you recover soon~

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BF Diary: New Dilemma

Dulu dilemma freezer's too small to store EBM.. Skrg dilemma deep freezer pulak too small to store EBM..


Ni dah abis susun la ni, xtau nak susun/sumbat mana lagi. Sumbat dlm mulut Aqilah xjalan pulak.. Penat aku auta cakap ais cream and letak dlm sippy cup yang xsee through.. Tidak dilayan muaahahha

Option last before dibuang to make space adalah untuk mencari ibu2 yang memerlukan.. Tapi research xabis buat lagi.. Argghh bila la nak abis contest si mamykokok nih??

p/s: mata lebam tengok laptop byk sangat!!
p/s: aku baca dorg kata anyone above 2yrs old xkan jadi anak susuan sbb xcukup syarat.. Ada yanf berminat nak makan ais krim aku buat? Hahahha
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BF Diary: Bayi Susu Ibu

Sharing is caring~!

p/s: tinggi IQ?? amin~! too bz with mamypoko earn your stripes challenge~! Mika pun kadang-kadang terpaksa mengadap laptop muahahaha

BF Diary: Hasil tuaian

Inilah hasil tuaian over the weekend yang tak berapa nak banyak..



Mostly dituai dalam kereta sebab bz berjimba berjalan~

p/s: ini hobby baru saya~

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BF Diary: Space issue

Solution to our space problem!!

Weeee!! 150L Media deep freezer~ lagi best we got a good bargain, the cheapest in town for a spanking brand new freezer!!

Alhamdulillah.. Dah hampir penuh freezer nih~ murah rezeki si kenit :)

p/s: semoga production tak merosot in the future.. Mari berjuang!!

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Bye 2011, Hello 2012!

Happy new year!!
Kejap je masa berlalu.. 2011 has been really good to me.. Walaupun ada up and down, with my lovely husband by my side.. Alhamdulillah, berjaya ditempuhi dengan tabah!
Last year punya resolution tak banyak pun and i'm happy that we managed to achieve the most important resolution!
- our own baby : alhamdulillah, kami dikurniakan si comel yang memang menjadi penyeri hidup kami suami isteri~ berjaya buat kami tergelak dengan keleteh2 comel

- live a healthy life : ermmmmm, lepas je dpt tau mika is in my tummy mmg jadi pemalas ya amat!! Tambah plak lepas excercise tiba-tiba rasa cam pening2 nak pitam (case xtau pregnant lagi time nih~)
- rumah sendiri : akan dicarry foward ke next year since banyak betul halangan.. Rasa cam nak give up je kadang2.. Penat buat house hunting nih.. Dah jumpa tuan dia pulak buat hal~ terus cancel!
So this year pun aku tak set azam banyak-banyak. Aku cuma berharap
- dapat fully breasfeed mika till he's 2yo!
- dapat jumpa rumah idaman
- dapat menjadi insan, anak, isteri and mummy yang lebih baik
- en suami dapat keje lagi best!! Kalau dapat yang ober the sea lagi bagus~ wa nak ikut, boleh jadi ma'am besar goyang kaki je!
- jadi lebih sihat, lebih rajin jenguk gym sebab selera makan amat menjadi-jadi sekarang ni!

Eh macam terbanyak pulak.. Halal je la~ jom kita enjoy 2012 pulak!!

p/s: kami celebrate new year ata katil je, layan krohh krohh lagi best!!

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BF Diary: The Beginning

When I found out that I was pregnant, I did lots of reading on the don’ts and do’s. My main research was on breasfeeding. I was surrounded by bf-ing mothers and have read enough of successful stories, so dah set in my mind to fully breastfeed my baby~

Malangnya, despite all my research.. I still have rocky start. First day after Mika’s arrival, I was too tired and sleepy sebab I was given a dose of pethadine during my labor (which doesn’t reduce the pain pun though I managed to doze off for a few minutes in between my contractions)! On the way to my room, dorang letak Mika on my chest for a while, and all I can do is to smile at him and belai rambut diab yang lebat! I did tell the nurse that I want to feed him tapi dia suruh aku tido dulu. While I was sleeping, they gave FM to Mika.. pfftttt!! Lepas tu Mika slept all day long sikit pun tanak susu. Aku try jugak sua miss B with the nurse help tapi Mika tidur keras!

The same thing happened on the second day!! They fed him FM before sending him to my room and there’s no sign of milk. Time ni tak sabar nak balik dah, cause aku nak cepat-cepat berurut. Miss B pun dah start mengeras. Unfortunately for me, aunty aku yang suppose to massage me is not feeling well so we have to postponed the massage session. By this time, I was feeling soo frustrated because I have to continue to feed Mika with FM.

Hari ke-4 baru la nampak bayang susu lepas berurut, walaupun sebelah je. Excited giler, aku terus sua kat Mika. Sakitnya tak payah cakap la since he didn’t latch properly. Aku pun tak berapa pandai lagi, so agak merana la nak menahan sakit! The same night, I started to pump because Mika was sleeping all the time. Nak gerak tuk feeding pun tak berjaya. Alhamdulillah, dapat la jugak dalam 1 setengah oz. Then urut the other side sebab nak kasi keluar jugak. Berkat kesabaran and kegigihan aku dan hubby, the same night keluar jugak susu. Hasilnye hampir 3 oz jugak berjaya diexpress!! Pastu I managed to spill some milk pulak, rasa nak menangis je time ni!

For the next 2 day, we start to mix formula with EBM. I have started to pump every 2 hours to increase my milk supply so boleh la fully bf. Penat giler ye pump every 2 hours around the clock but to ensure Mika get the best, ku tabahkan hati bangun pagi buta then spent one hour to pump. Nasib mak ada, so siang boleh la jugak ganti tido.

Hari yang ke-tujuh, Mika dah fully on breastmilk through bottle sebab my nipples hurt like crazy tak sanggup nak kasi direct kat dia. My aunt dah bising-bising, cakap biar la berdarah pun I have to direct feed my baby. Normal katanya. Haruslah aku ignore the advice, takut karang aku terus stop satu hal pulak. Plus I’ve read a lot on breastfeeding kan, so haruslah aku tau yang it won’t hurt if your baby latch correctly. Puas aku search online camne nak latchkan baby correctly. Lepas seminggu, aku gilir-gilirkan bottle and direct so that nipple ada masa nak heal in case of incorrect latching. By this time, my milk supply has stabilized so that I started to freeze some. Sikit-sikit lama-lama jadi bukit, ye tak?

After two weeks, mak balik leaving me alone to take care of the little one. Hubby pun dah start keje. Sebab tak biasa lagi, aku terkejar-kejar nak settlekan semua benda. Time nak pump pun limited, so I have to reduce my session to every 4 hours. After a week of this strenuous routine, start la ada problem with my milk supply. Disebabkan aku terlampau stress and penat, susu tak nak keluar sangat so stock merundum menambahkan stress. Aku pun mula la research camne nak keluarkan susu sampai la aku kene bengkak susu yang sangat sakit tak ingat. Berjalan pun sakit ok! Last resort, pegi for another massage session with my aunt. Lepas berurut, mencurah-curah keluar but then bila balik and pump.. bluergghh still tanak keluar.. menangis2 aku sambil mengepam!  Lepas tu, both breast take turn pulak bengkak susu. This week kiri, next week kanan. Sangat mencabar minda!!

Now, 2 days away to 2 months.. Alhamdulillah milk supply amat menggalakkan although takde la macam setengah orang sekali pump sampai berbelas oz, aku dapat 5-7oz pun dah bersyukur~rezeki Mika la ni and hopefully this continue for the next 22 months, amin~ bengkak susu tu still ada occasionally but I now have a husband who knows how to massage my breast, tak payah nak pegi berurut ke Kajang lagi.. hahaha boleh jadi mak bidan dah ye cik abang? tak sanggup nak massage breast sendiri time bengkak susu sebab it's really painful, keluar air mata tahan sakit!!

Sekarang ada dilemma lain pulak.. I don’t have enough space to store my ebm! My freezer dah penuh and hubby dah bising sebab dia takde space nak ikan ayam segala.. muahahah freezer telah dikidnap oleh Mika sepenuhnya!!

p/s: orang kata nak seribu daya, tak nak seribu dalih~ aku bersyukur sebab aku masih mampu bertahan walaupun macam-macam ujian datang, Alhamdulillah! setengah orang macam senang je menempuh alam breastfeeding ni, you guys are soo lucky~!

p/ss: Terima kasih cik abang sayang~

p/sss: to all mommy-to-be out there, be prepared and kuatkan semangat sebab it's not an easy journey. Jangan give up ok!!